Depressed

I'm feeling depressed today - that's only a summary !
Well, it started even before I got out of the bed. And when I think now, that's the only bad thing since then. yet, I'm very much hurt. Unfortunately, an hour of gymming and half an hour of cooking haven't wiped out the bad feeling.I'm in office, but my thoughts are elsewhere. I'm extrapolating my today's scenario on a future plan and feeling insecure! My question or worry is: Who will take care of me when I am old and sick?
I donot have kids and even if I get one, it is not correct to be dependent on them. My husband had already expressed his inability to fend me when old and said that the house I'm constructing should take care of my financial needs in future. I'm paying the EMIs and gonna do it for another 20 years- how nice! He helped find the property and his duty or support ended there, in his opinion. Neither he is bad nor is he right!
I'm wondering if that would be enough or if that would be my only need ?
Is this what happens when both the partners donot love each other? I don't know what is love!
There are so many uncertainities in this universe around me and still I worry about what happened to me which leads to what would happen to me!
Irony, isn't it?
Or, is this life? Am I over engineering my feelings or these are natural emotions which a normal person undergoes?
Better I forget all these things. But how?

Relationship without expectations

How to be in a relationship without expectations? This was the discussion I had with my colleagues over tea time. Everyone except me were arguing that it is not possible to lead a life without expectations. One even went to the extent to say that his goal in life is to have expectations (read as results).
We humans have got into a situation where we cannot think of doing an activity without knowing the result, forget about expectations! In a result oriented society, everything is based on outcome and we are trained that way since our birth. The charm of the life is that we still continue to love or 'expected' to love and love selflessly in certain relationships. but, is that feasible? How can a person be pragmatic in everything else but in one or few relationships?
I donno.

Expectations in a Relatrionship

I am confused !
Relationships have always confused me !
I realise this mainly during the troubled times!
It takes time to define a relationship, its nature and objective. Only time can tell about the longevity of a relationship and if it is successful or not and if it is ongoing or not!
And then, there are a few which fall on neither sides in both categories. We don't know sometimes if a relationship is alive and kicking or if it has ended successfully or not!

Humans are amazing - not only because each one is unique, but also each heart and mind store infinite feelings and thoughts about people and relationships with them.
We get hurt when our feelings are not acknowledged or in other words, when our expectations are not met! Feelings arise from the heart. From where do expectations arise?
And a more critical question is - Do we have control on our expectations?If yes, to what extent?

Can spirituality answer these questions? Many religions and philosophies seem to be against expectations in a relationship!
The core principle of Buddhism is to have no expectations which is also the basis for almost every other religion as well. BhagvadGita dictates one to do the duties without worrying/expecting the results!
But, is it easily humane to be without expectations in one's deeds or in a relationship?
And my bigger question is : If there is no expectation, what defines a relationship and how does one differentiate a relationship from another?